It's Tuesday evening and it's such a blah-ish day. I'm trying to be happy in a world that makes me sad. Each day is a challenge. Each day is a step closer to death. It's hard not to think about it when it's always there...just on the outskirts. In the shadows of the day. Last weekend (the 17th) Luc's stone was set. It's beautiful but it opened up a fresh can of grief. It makes it seem so final altho I know that it's not. I still have the hope that I'll see him again...I pray I will. I have to keep my heart right with God and make sure I don't miss Heaven for anything. Bitterness tries to take that all away from me...that is my new struggle. God please help me make it through this crazy messed up unfair world.