Christmas time.....

Yes, it's that time of the year. The most wonderful time of the year. The fun, exciting, blessed time of the year. Or that's what it's supposed to be.

For me, it's the time of year that the sorrow, emptiness, and grief somehow seems stronger. Lucas is gone...never to be here again. Linsy and the grandkids are in another state, not even sure if they'll come up. So it's just Wade, Lezly and I. I'm grateful that I'm not alone on Christmas...there are so many who are. But I remember the times when the house was full of kid's laughter, traditions, Christmas music, smells of goodies, presents wrapped, anticipation, excitement. Now our house is filled with silence. I try to make it happy...I do. But I cannot do it alone. It's just not the same anymore.

It's true what they say...Christmas is for children. I see that now. I love to see how excited they are in the stores looking at the toys and talking of Santa. They are pleased and grateful with what they get as gifts. Oh how things change when they get older. The gifts wanted become more expensive and being grateful is often a thing of the past. They are jealous of what others get and sometimes pout and complain and really lose the true meaning of Christmas. We all do!

The real gift is LOVE. Why can't it be given more? Why do we not share what we have, whether little or big, with those less fortunate? Why can't we be nicer to people? To family? To strangers? Isn't that what the true meaning of Christmas is?

So I will look around to see what I can share. I will try to smile more and love more. I will be grateful and remind myself of the true meaning of Christmas. I will do what I can to see joy on someone's face. To show someone what a blessed, wonderful time of the year it is. Of course, I will do this for others....even tho I can't do it for myself.

Oh Lord, how I need You during this holiday, for I cannot do it alone! It's Christmas time and I need a Christmas miracle!