Friends.....

Okay so we've been in the hospital for almost a week and I always learn alot about people while we're here...the old and young. So, I've been doing some thinking these past few days about "friends" and what they mean. But two questions keep coming to my mind over and over: WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE MY FRIEND? AND WHAT DO I MEAN TO YOU?



I'm in a place in my life where I NEED my friends. Not acquaintances, not someone who knows my name, not someone who's heard of me before...but I NEED TRUE friends. I NEED friends who care about me and what's going on in my life. I NEED friends who will encourage me, pray for me, love me. I NEED friends who will be by my side while I grieve for my son or while I sit at the hospital with my daughter. I NEED friends who will HELP me find my joy when I seem to have lost it. I NEED friends who will rejoice with me when something good happens and cry with me when the bad happens. I NEED friends who have my back through the good times and the bad.



Now let me tell you what I DO NOT NEED! I DO NOT NEED "friends" who ignore me. I DO NOT NEED "friends" who are jealous when good things come my way. I DO NOT NEED "friends" who will not stand beside me when I am scared. I DO NOT NEED "friends" who discourage me and bring me down. I DO NOT NEED "friends" who look at me with disdain...or who roll their eyes when I'm having a rough day. I DO NOT NEED "friends" who think of my "friendship" as just a name and number on their facebook page. No, these are NOT the kind of "friends" that I NEED.



And speaking of facebook, seriously why HIDE "friends"? Why not just delete? Is it because you don't want your "friends" list number to go down? We're adults...no longer in high school. This is not a popularity contest. Being a name on a "friends" list....that's NOT what it's all about. Do you ever have a NEED for a TRUE friend? Do you go to your "friends" list to find that friend or do you already know who you can count on...who will be there for you? Honestly, do you KNOW all the "friends" on your list? Do you KNOW their struggles, their fears, their dreams, their life? Do you even CARE about that person on your "friends" list?



So this is my thing.....I want to be there for my friends when they need me. I want to encourage you, pray for you, make you smile, help you forget about your heartaches even if it's just for a couple of hours. I want to stand WITH you, stand up FOR you, and HELP you stand when you haven't the strength. I want to KNOW your fears, your dreams, your hurts, your triumphs. I want to be a TRUE friend! Do you?



I WANT TRUE FRIENDS! I WANT REAL FRIENDS! CAN YOU BE THAT TO ME? BECAUSE IF YOU'RE NOT WILLING TO BE THAT FOR ME, THEN IT'S TIME TO SAY BYE-BYE. IT'S YOUR CHOICE. GUESS WE'LL SEE......