My heart is breaking....

My daughter Lezly has been keeping up with little Conner and his family. I just read Sarah's last 2 blogs and it breaks my heart!! The memories and emotions of losing our son last year to this horrible disease have come flooding back. They have hit me hard...especially since I am sitting in a hospital room just a few doors down from where my son took his last breath here on Earth. I pray that this family will continue to lean on God to help them through this awful time. It makes me so mad that we fight for our child's life...we fight for every breath they take, we fight for the right treatments and the right doctors, we fight to make sure every hospital stay is not too scary and borders on fun. We fight right along side our child who is struggling...actually we fight harder because it is our child!! We only want the best for them...what parent wouldn't want that? We do our best to encourage, to show faith and hope, and to show them to always lean on the Lord. We pray and we plead, we cry and we laugh, we fear and we cherish....every moment! For we never know when that moment will be IT. And then...it seems it's all for nothing. What do we have to show for it? I am blessed to have had my son for as long as we did. I am blessed to still have my daughter, Lezly...but, I am struggling today with all of this. I'm struggling to keep up the brave face and not feel the hopelessness. I'm struggling...but God is faithful. He is with me and will never leave me. He is my strength.